There are really nothing in my head. I tried hard to make it that way.
Never ever succeed.
It kept flooding it way in my head. Strongly. Confidently.
In making my life a little bit miserable.
Just a little is enough to make me doing unthinkable things.
Unmatured aka childish things.
The urge just to barely think about all of it, enough to make me dizzy,
Family is made up from a very strong bond between the parents and also among the siblings.
If one ever make mistake, it affeccts the others.
The entire family.
The person herself.
Either phsically or heck, mentally.
But who is to be blamed exactly?
If i'm older than the other, doesn't mean at all it is my fault.
Entirely.
It looked like it was all my fault.
How come it ended up like that?
Yeah.
My feelings suck.
So emo.
Cant control emotions properly.
But.
But.
But.
Thinks too about me.
Please?
No sorry offeres here.
Egoistic?Yeah.yeah.yeah.thank you.
Cant admit your own mistake?Yeah.yeah.yeah.big-head!
Ungrateful to the food?to the barakah of Ramadhan?Yeah.yeah.yeah.I know it all.Just BUT!
There is moreeeee to think than just to think small matter like this.
But the heart ache so much than i ever thought.
Just whatever.
Me with the 2 in front of my age, gradually feeeeels the burden and the responsibilty increase.
Keep strong wahida!
If you are alone, or even miserable, like really miserable, occupy yourself with things unrelated with Real Life.
That is just how iI'm able to keep and maintain a smiley face on any situations.
So whenever there is just someone who asked.
How come i get all smiley and ease-hearted when the world is fallilng down.I mean like the craziness of being a student. You get what i mean right?
So this is just my way of keeping myself in contact, in order.
It is not running away.
But just to charge myself.
That is just the purpose. Hmm?
Wrong concept?
Who says about right or wrong here?
It is just how i'm dealing with the craziness of life?
No crying out loud please.
Im really determined to make this entry in full engrish as i really want to improve my engrish.Hmm?
It just when you get down to business doing and writing the works, i just know my english is so bad.
Okay till then!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Assignment is manyyyy and NEWS is blessed!
Assignment do me an honour please.
Leave me alone! Can?
Nanti aku bagi kau upah if u ever had the chance to leave me alone eh!
HAHAHA.
Amalkan lah budaya mengupah kerana ia mendorong kepada kecekapan orang buat kerja!
Xkisahlah kalau korang nak bantai aku cakap, nanti hati xikhlas kalau kerja tu just nak dapat upah je.
Well as i said before before and before.
The outcome is the most important kot!
Well.its true that sebelum sampai kepada outcome, mesti wujud step2 yang berperingkat2.
Dan sebelum step2 tu muncul, yeah. Niat di hati mestilah betul.
Yeah yeah.
But apapun outcome tetap terpenting.
Kerja2 :
Thermo => slide show on pure substance, 3 tutorials with 5 questions each.
Electric & Magnet => 50 pages work on electric, slide show, test 1.
Phylosophy => group work on Al-Quran as Science Encyclopedia. Tajuk bajet hebat, harap isi xhampeh la. Hmmm.
Science Material => Project in short future.
Dan segala tutor and notes.
okay ni je nak cakap. entry x berkaliber betul kan.!
aouthor's note : saya sayang NEWS! ! !YEYEYEYE!
Friday, August 13, 2010
late
okay this entry was supposed to be published on wednesday but coz blogspot is kinda annoyed me to death with 'her' kerenah. so here we go!
HOORAYYYYYY.
Saya dah tua. Umur dah masuk puluh. Walaweh!
Rasa macam baru semalam masuk sekolah rendah.
Berjalan terkedek2 dengan rambut diikat dua. OHMIGOD sangat comel! HAHA.
Rasa macam baru semalam merajuk2 manja dengan kawan2 waktu sekolah agama.
Miss that old time when i think i really hargai my friends.
Kami berbeza kelas and sekolah kebangsaan. Tapi still boleh baik.
Aku selalu rasa masa aku sekolah rendah aku macam orang terbiar yang takde orang beri perhatian and homat. Entahlah. So they were truly my saviour at that time!
Rasa macam baru semalam lempang sorang guy yang pernah minat kat aku.
Sangat sorry to you Mr. Salam. Wah xsangka I wrote his name in this blog.
But seriously sangat sorry. HAHAH.
Rasa macam baru semalam aku meminati ramai orang tak kira lapisan umur,but well not more than 2 years of my age at that time.
About this matter,it kinda not the best memory i had. A bit embarassing actually! Lucky now i am a bit more rational in my way of talking, admiring the boys.
Oh really? HAHAH.'
Rasa macam baru semalam berbalas2 surat dengan member2 sekolah perempuan and sekolah agama.
Aku sangat suka menulis. Menulis surat tentang ape2. Tentang crushes. Tentang kawan. Tentang peljaran(HAHA sikit je, tp the thought that come kan!)
Rasa macam baru semalam dapat pegi sunway lagoon sebab ayah menang peraduan under my name.
Bukanlah the best memori,tapi welll actually bukan sekadar sunway lagoon je. All the place s we as a family go together!
Aku sangat suka melancong(if ada money semua on kan!)! Macam my dad! =))
Rasa macam baru semalam aku selalu di buli.
Aku yang terlampau memberi muka pada diorang sebenarnya. Tapi well entahlah, akhirnya diri aku yang merana. Aku yang terseksa sendiri.
Rasa macam baru semalam aku sangat cengeng, gembeng and seangkatan dengannya.
Well the gembeng inside me is not entirely gone, still kuat lagi.
Cuma i guess ia makin berkurangan. Great!
Rasa macam baru semalam aku gaduh2 ngan my adik time kat sekolah etc => SYUE!
HAHAHA. Saje je nak mention ni! But I guess not with her only, but with my other siblings! HAHA
Rasa macam baru semalam je baru lepas keluar SMKTA, SMKAJB, KMJ.
Aku happy pernah wujud di situ. Mengenali kawan2 baru. Tapi its just kekadang aku xcukup bersyukur berada di situ. Entahlah.
Rasa macam baru semalam masuk USIM.
Hope terus gembira and bertaqwa bersama Usim!
Rasa macam baru semalam masuk rumah sewa, keluar kolej kediaman.
Pengalaman baru. Masalah baru. Persahabatan baru. Persekitaran baru.
Rasa macam baru semalam sy ni dah tahun 2 student applied physics!
Revive Islam!
Rasa macam baru semalam segala memori yang pernah wujud.
Mahu terus create good memory for me to remember!
Happy birthday to my dearest friends, adik!
3/8 => Nana KMJ and Yusra LJ~
6/8 => Ain USIM~
7/8 => Wanie KMJ~
8/8 => Aiman ADIKKU! and Sri Usim~
11/8 => Radin SKSB~
12/8 => Temah SMKAJB~!!syg kamu! ;))
Itu je kot. Yang lain nantilah. ;)
Lastly selamat berpuasa! ;))
Got the repaired laptop! ;)
Got the cd! Yamapi! ;))
Where is my present!?? ;P
HOORAYYYYYY.
Saya dah tua. Umur dah masuk puluh. Walaweh!
Rasa macam baru semalam masuk sekolah rendah.
Berjalan terkedek2 dengan rambut diikat dua. OHMIGOD sangat comel! HAHA.
Rasa macam baru semalam merajuk2 manja dengan kawan2 waktu sekolah agama.
Miss that old time when i think i really hargai my friends.
Kami berbeza kelas and sekolah kebangsaan. Tapi still boleh baik.
Aku selalu rasa masa aku sekolah rendah aku macam orang terbiar yang takde orang beri perhatian and homat. Entahlah. So they were truly my saviour at that time!
Rasa macam baru semalam lempang sorang guy yang pernah minat kat aku.
Sangat sorry to you Mr. Salam. Wah xsangka I wrote his name in this blog.
But seriously sangat sorry. HAHAH.
Rasa macam baru semalam aku meminati ramai orang tak kira lapisan umur,but well not more than 2 years of my age at that time.
About this matter,it kinda not the best memory i had. A bit embarassing actually! Lucky now i am a bit more rational in my way of talking, admiring the boys.
Oh really? HAHAH.'
Rasa macam baru semalam berbalas2 surat dengan member2 sekolah perempuan and sekolah agama.
Aku sangat suka menulis. Menulis surat tentang ape2. Tentang crushes. Tentang kawan. Tentang peljaran(HAHA sikit je, tp the thought that come kan!)
Rasa macam baru semalam dapat pegi sunway lagoon sebab ayah menang peraduan under my name.
Bukanlah the best memori,tapi welll actually bukan sekadar sunway lagoon je. All the place s we as a family go together!
Aku sangat suka melancong(if ada money semua on kan!)! Macam my dad! =))
Rasa macam baru semalam aku selalu di buli.
Aku yang terlampau memberi muka pada diorang sebenarnya. Tapi well entahlah, akhirnya diri aku yang merana. Aku yang terseksa sendiri.
Rasa macam baru semalam aku sangat cengeng, gembeng and seangkatan dengannya.
Well the gembeng inside me is not entirely gone, still kuat lagi.
Cuma i guess ia makin berkurangan. Great!
Rasa macam baru semalam aku gaduh2 ngan my adik time kat sekolah etc => SYUE!
HAHAHA. Saje je nak mention ni! But I guess not with her only, but with my other siblings! HAHA
Rasa macam baru semalam je baru lepas keluar SMKTA, SMKAJB, KMJ.
Aku happy pernah wujud di situ. Mengenali kawan2 baru. Tapi its just kekadang aku xcukup bersyukur berada di situ. Entahlah.
Rasa macam baru semalam masuk USIM.
Hope terus gembira and bertaqwa bersama Usim!
Rasa macam baru semalam masuk rumah sewa, keluar kolej kediaman.
Pengalaman baru. Masalah baru. Persahabatan baru. Persekitaran baru.
Rasa macam baru semalam sy ni dah tahun 2 student applied physics!
Revive Islam!
Rasa macam baru semalam segala memori yang pernah wujud.
Mahu terus create good memory for me to remember!
Happy birthday to my dearest friends, adik!
3/8 => Nana KMJ and Yusra LJ~
6/8 => Ain USIM~
7/8 => Wanie KMJ~
8/8 => Aiman ADIKKU! and Sri Usim~
11/8 => Radin SKSB~
12/8 => Temah SMKAJB~!!syg kamu! ;))
Itu je kot. Yang lain nantilah. ;)
Lastly selamat berpuasa! ;))
Got the repaired laptop! ;)
Got the cd! Yamapi! ;))
Where is my present!?? ;P
Monday, August 2, 2010
Serabut
Rasa nak menangis sangat. Sangat.
Well memang dah nangis pun.
Tapi kepuasan tu takde. Hati aku masih rasa xsenang.
Aku betul2 nak cerita kat member2. Tapi entahlah.
Walaupun dah cerita. My heart just seem tooo dense and deaf about my feeling.
How come my own heart doesnt understand her own feeling huh? T____________T
Harap lepas ni takde masalah macam ni. Ever again.
Kepada yang sudi risau. Takpe. jangan risaukan saya.
Saya dah besar, Saya akan cuba lebih bersikap matang dalam hal ini.
Tapi aku betul2 sangat tertanya2 adakah apa yang aku buat tu betul2 menunjukkan kedewasaan aku? Just wait and see huh?
Good luck in your life.
Well to be honest today aku dah okay sikit.
Cuma semalam lebih kronik masalah perasaan aku.
Well memang dah nangis pun.
Tapi kepuasan tu takde. Hati aku masih rasa xsenang.
Aku betul2 nak cerita kat member2. Tapi entahlah.
Walaupun dah cerita. My heart just seem tooo dense and deaf about my feeling.
How come my own heart doesnt understand her own feeling huh? T____________T
Harap lepas ni takde masalah macam ni. Ever again.
Kepada yang sudi risau. Takpe. jangan risaukan saya.
Saya dah besar, Saya akan cuba lebih bersikap matang dalam hal ini.
Tapi aku betul2 sangat tertanya2 adakah apa yang aku buat tu betul2 menunjukkan kedewasaan aku? Just wait and see huh?
Good luck in your life.
Well to be honest today aku dah okay sikit.
Cuma semalam lebih kronik masalah perasaan aku.
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